Of course I had to tell Abe the result before anyone else.
That last post was probably a dirty trick to keep you all hanging -- maybe it helped you gain a little empathy!
At 9:05 the nurse called, much earlier than I have heard back in the past.
"Congratulations!" She said.
I wasn't quite sure if I fully understood what that meant. But she continued with the good news.
HCG level 662
She almost laughed about this and said there was "still a chance for a singleton" -- meaning this high number most likely means twins!
Progesterone 17.3 (should be between 15-60)
I also got instructions on my medications (I can discontinue my shots at the end of April) and some of my other pills in about a month.
In the meantime, I will have an additional blood test Monday to verify my hormone levels are increasing and an ultrasound mid-March to verify implantation and how many babies.
After we hung up I got down on my knees and thanked God it finally worked.
Abe finally called me about 30 minutes after I texted him to let him know I had the result. I started crying when I told him it was positive. He said he didn't think I would be crying if it was positive but I was feeling quite emotional. He seemed surprised and very calm. I think in Abe speak that means happy!
So how am I feeling now?
I am in disbelief.
I can't believe it.
I feel relieved.
I feel grateful.
|Our first baby picture!|
I know it is a little unconventional to announce it the day you find out but I wanted this to be real. I also realized I kind of backed myself into the corner with this blog series and how could I not tell the results (and still keep friends?). There is a common sentiment that women shouldn't announce a pregnancy until the second trimester. The only reasoning I have heard is "in case something goes wrong."
I know there is a chance that things can still go wrong. I know that it is a little strange to announce so early. But I am going off faith that things will work out. I know I have benefited from my openness so much. The kind words from old and new friends and the number of prayers we have received has been overwhelming. I have no doubt God heard those prayers of the many and that it made a difference. Being quiet would have meant not receiving any of that support or those heavenly requests on our behalf.
There is a higher chance of miscarriage in patients with PCOS. If that happens then I guess it may make you feel awkward or sad to find out. And if it sadly does, I will continue to appreciate the support I know I will continue to get from all of you. Any continued prayers for a safe and healthy pregnancy and baby(ies) will of course be appreciated.
So, for once some positive news. And maybe our wait is finally actually really on the end to being over.
*This post feels really jumbled to me. At some point I would have wanted to do a cutesy pregnancy announcement. Something clever and fun and would take days to plan. At this point I just don't have it in me. It seems like there should be something so much more profound or interesting to say but I am really at a loss for words.