Thursday, February 26, 2015

The Result

Of course I had to tell Abe the result before anyone else.

That last post was probably a dirty trick to keep you all hanging -- maybe it helped you gain a little empathy!

At 9:05 the nurse called, much earlier than I have heard back in the past.

"Congratulations!" She said.

I wasn't quite sure if I fully understood what that meant. But she continued with the good news.

HCG level 662

She almost laughed about this and said there was "still a chance for a singleton" -- meaning this high number most likely means twins!

Progesterone 17.3 (should be between 15-60)

I also got instructions on my medications (I can discontinue my shots at the end of April) and some of my other pills in about a month.

In the meantime, I will have an additional blood test Monday to verify my hormone levels are increasing and an ultrasound mid-March to verify implantation and how many babies.

After we hung up I got down on my knees and thanked God it finally worked.

Abe finally called me about 30 minutes after I texted him to let him know I had the result. I started crying when I told him it was positive. He said he didn't think I would be crying if it was positive but I was feeling quite emotional. He seemed surprised and very calm. I think in Abe speak that means happy!

So how am I feeling now?

I am in disbelief.
I can't believe it.
I feel relieved.
I feel grateful.

Our first baby picture!

I know it is a little unconventional to announce it the day you find out but I wanted this to be real. I also realized I kind of backed myself into the corner with this blog series and how could I not tell the results (and still keep friends?).  There is a common sentiment that women shouldn't announce a pregnancy until the second trimester. The only reasoning I have heard is "in case something goes wrong."

I know there is a chance that things can still go wrong. I know that it is a little strange to announce so early. But I am going off faith that things will work out. I know I have benefited from my openness so much. The kind words from old and new friends and the number of prayers we have received has been overwhelming. I have no doubt God heard those prayers of the many and that it made a difference. Being quiet would have meant not receiving any of that support or those heavenly requests on our behalf.

There is a higher chance of miscarriage in patients with PCOS. If that happens then I guess it may make you feel awkward or sad to find out.  And if it sadly does, I will continue to appreciate the support I know I will continue to get from all of you. Any continued prayers for a safe and healthy pregnancy and baby(ies) will of course be appreciated.

So, for once some positive news. And maybe our wait is finally actually really on the end to being over.

*This post feels really jumbled to me. At some point I would have wanted to do a cutesy pregnancy announcement. Something clever and fun and would take days to plan. At this point I just don't have it in me. It seems like there should be something so much more profound or interesting to say but I am really at a loss for words.


Mom said...

Your announcement/words are perfect. So happy for you and Abe and will continue to keep you in our positive thoughts.

Señora H-B said...

So, so, so, so happy!!!!! Just a perfect post. Thanks for keeping us all informed. I'll be here, an Internet stranger, pulling for you and ready to share a kind word. Hugs!

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Sundy said...

This is so, so fantastic!! Thank you for your continued vulnerability. The scripture you shared in your previous post has brought comfort to my heart, too, in times of sorrow and of joy. The Lord keeps his promises. So happy for (all) of you.

kimberly said...

Best news I've heard all month!! And I completely agree and ADMIRE your decision to blog this series and share your announcement. I have learned so much! I am the opposite of you getting pregnant too easily w my first 2 kids and then boom getting pregnant with TWINS naturally! I have always sympathized for women who have longed to have a baby but your story has helped me feel empathy for you and others. I am so grateful for your words and tutoring. Soon you and I will no longer be opposites - just both mommies -- maybe even both twin mommies!!! Best of luck ��

Kristy said...

Yay, yay, yay! So happy for you, friend. Congratulations!

Donna said...

I am SO happy to hear this. Congratulations!! (Next time I see you at a church thing I need to introduce myself to you!)

Camber said...

Seriously, Erin, I'm tearing up here. I'm so happy for you. Good luck moving forward--I'll be praying for you that everything goes well. I admire your openness through this process and have thought, Why not be open about it--then even if something happens you'll have all these people to support and comfort you? But also all these people to pray everything goes well. Getting pregnant is the first step and a nice high HCG level is so encouraging. Congrats!

Erin said...

Thank you everyone so much!

Erin said...

Donna, come say hi!

Megs said...

Having PCOS myself and always wondering if it will ever be a reality for me, I've loved reading your heart and following your journey throthroughout your life!
You well continue in my prayers and I join my faith with yours! I believe in God and his timing. And it's comforting when others do too! Love ya! Megan

Erin said...

Kim, I am going to have to call on you for some mommy advice (and maybe some twin mommy advice). It's been a long time so thanks for saying hi.

Erin said...

Senora, I love my internet strangers! Thank you for reaching out and being so supportive. I think we can move to the internet friend stage.

Erin said...

Meg, I have been glad to hear other people have success. It gave me hope, too. We PCOS girls need to stick together.