I feel like an idiot.
I have been working in the Oral Surgery clinic at school, earning some money by taking out teeth over my summer break.
Yesterday afternoon I saw a patient that was pretty overwhelming with her chattiness. This morning when she came back, I really did not feel up to facing her. When the clerk asked me to take it I asked if I could have the other patient up for that time, if someone else could take her. She seemed miffed and asked why. When I told her I felt a personality clash and just not up to it, she gave me a hard time. One of the residents was there and told me that if I am an oral surgeon it doesn't matter if there is a personality clash. She told they weren't paying me to do nothing. They both seemed pretty annoyed.
I feel really bad now. I could have handled the patient but I felt she would actually do better with someone else. I didn't think requesting a different patient would be a big deal, it's not like we don't do that among each other.
I just feel like, man! I make stupid mistakes all the time. Something I thought would be a minor thing feels like I now looks like a slacker in Oral Surgery or something. So much for getting extra experience and helping them get to know me more!