Monday, June 2, 2014

The light at the end of the tunnel (is blinding)

Yesterday was my sister's birthday. What does that mean? It's June!

June has always been a great month. The first month of summer. Warm weather. My birthday. But this year it is especially exciting. It is the month I finish my residency!

I can't hardly believe it. After 4 years and 11 months, I am in my last (less than) 3 weeks of residency! It is one of those moments I never thought would actually arrive (for me).

To make it even sweeter, I just completed a month of trauma call (did you notice my long absence?). I have always been one to try my best to enjoy life's moments and not wish my life away waiting for, "only when..." But I can say I have been a little guilty of anticipating the arrival of June 2 and my freedom from call. I had a busy few weeks on top of a serious case of senioritis. So, I may not be feeling quite like myself, even today. I feel a little emotionally frazzled and physically tired. I keep looking for my pager. I keep forgetting it is okay to make plans. But when I remember, I am relieved!

I thought when I got to this month I would feel pretty relieved. Maybe the residual stress of call is getting to me, but I feel a little bit of stress, maybe a touch of anxiety, and some nervousness. I have a lot to get done this month before I jump into my new practice. And I am sure I will continue to encounter a whirlwind of emotions: relief, anxiety, excitement, feelings of sentiment, disbelief, nervousness, and question marks about what is to come next.

18 more days!

2 comments:

Oriens said...

CONGRATS!! You are so so so soooo close! It's nice to see that it happens. Because sometimes, I feel like residency will never end. =)

Rachel Culmer said...

The light is blinding isn't it. :)